Ethan-Carl

Well, I have been SO busy recently that I haven't been on Dev for months, and the only art I have done has been poster and advertising designs for Macbeth plus doodling and note passing in class.
However, I now have some time on my hands. With my exit project for High School, I will be doing A LOT of painting (in different styles than realism... I'll keep you posted with my endevors to branch out artistically) but before I really get into that, I want to do a large portrait of Natalie Portman, who, between Garden State and Closer, has obsessed herself into my mind. I am in love with her.
Which picture should I work from? (Picture will be in Prismacolor, including as much of the background as would be artistically sound)
www.natalieportman.com/images/…
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www.natalieportman.com/images/… (cropped)
I especially love the second one (I think): the one with the short dark hair cut, kind of blue looking, and the long earings, from Closer, with a photograph of a nude woman behind her... It's the background of my computer.
Anyway, I think I'll start on it soon, so let me know which one has popular demand!

You know what I hate almost more than anything?
To feel passed over, overlooked, to be made to feel like the 'spare wheel' or the extra person or whatever... More and more recently I have felt like that and I am getting sick of it. There certainly are a number of people who I am loosing faith in. I love them but don't know what to think. I am definatly feeling much closer to some other friends though, because at least some people are always there. Thank you to those of you whom I can always count on and share reassuring hugs with.
What a month.

Gee, I haven't been on Dev for such a long time; I've been very busy and stressed over a LOT of stuff, but things finally look like they're coming together. I'm glad that at least it was a 'good times' sort of stressed and not a 'I'm gonna fill my pockets with rocks and walk into the river' kind of stress, 'cause those suck.
I auditioned for Macbeth today, one of my favorite plays ever, such a brilliant character portrayal of every person in it, and I find out tomorrow if I made callbacks, and from there I'll know if I got cast by Friday. It was my worst audition ever, but on the bell-curve, I did pretty well; nobody had any time [people from my school: *are nodding*] so by comparision I don't think I really sucked.
I'm going to Homecoming with one of the most beautiful and fun people I know who is the character that Sam from Garden State was based on. 'Really?!' say people excitedly, but not really. Just EVERY person who knows this young lady has said after seeing Garden State 'Oh my gosh! They were the SAME PERSON!!!'
If you haven't seen Garden State, I feel that you're missing out on all that life has to offer. I love movies, so to say that it is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE MOVIE EVER is quite a huge statement. But it is true, none the less. It is my favorite movie and I am in love with Natalie Portman, who REALLY CAN ACT!!! I liked The Professional and Anywhere But Here and Where The Heart Is, and Coldmountain, but I never really thought of her as anything more than my favorite living girl who I didn't know, but now I look up to and respect and admire her SO much! I really shouldn't send her fan mail or she'd be scared and have me arrested... god I love her.

Well, so ends my last summer break. Next week (damn our district for putting us back in the classrooms on the 30th of August) my friends and I will be back at school.
It has its benifits, of course, less boredom and a purpose for getting up in the morning besides killing time. I'll get to see some friends I've really missed over the summer (and some whom I never wish to see again from events over the summer ) but on the whole it'll be nice to see everyone again.
Our Drama department has crumbled into the sea, so while the other officers and I are trying as hard as we can to fix things the district broke, I can't get to excited at the moment, since there will be more fighting and work than there will be sheer enjoyment of acting etc. I mean, fuck. Really, just fuck. I'm really pissed about what all has happened, and what we need to do within the next week to get us back on the ball. We'll get it done though.
I am excited, though because I've developed some... avenues of a romantic nature that I feel I will have some luck with this year. If things don't go as dismally as they usually go with ladies, but at the moment I feel that from a relationship point of view, I may get lucky this year. And I mean, after Black Wednesday and such... really anything would be a romantic perk. Even Queen Elizabeth or Hellen Keller would be sensual and enticing in comparrison to my last relationship, so here's to my future! Cheers!

I've been kind of tense and stressed about a lot of things recently, and yesterday was really very mixed; I saw a wretched film on a first date (or at least I hope to god it was a date) with a great girl I work with, we got ice cream, and chased ducks, lost my Tom Cruise sunglasses, found them again, it was nice, and the weather was great and I really enjoy spending time with this young lady. Then at work it was stressful, yet ammusing. Something that has been threatening to give me neurosis or stomach ulcers blew up in my face, and I can honestly say I have not ever felt so used and betrayed, yet I don't really care. So I guess it's fine!
And if anyone has seen Twin Peaks, you rock, and if not, you don't, but you can redeam youselves by watching the episodes on DVD. Twin Peaks is absolutly hysterical. And it encourages you to develop new talents. Like tying marichino cherry stems into a knot in your mouth. Sherilyn Fenn, a georgous actress in this Televiosion series has a scene where she seductively removes a cherry from a drink and eats it, then seductively ties the stem into a raunchy little knot. It was the most sophisticated raunchy thing I've ever seen, so at work I was telling this guy about it and he's like 'Oh, I can do that' so he and I ate like 4 lbs of cherries (we work at Coldstone Ice Cream) while he tried to teach me this provocative skill. And I finally learned it.
Anyway, so I did a painting and feel really proud of it, especially if you're not wearing your glasses or standing within 15 feet of it. I mean, really, at that distance and with slightly blurred vision, it looks like a photograph! And I feel very calm, because painting is soothing.